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There was this one morning last fall during video production class at U-Manchester where we broke for coffee. I walked nextdoor to the museum cafe, which had the best dark coffee in the city. They had a £2 special every morning, where you could get a tiny coffee and tiny chocolate croissant for a mere $4 USD before 11a. Phil, my moody 30-year-old professor, sat outside smoking and asked where I got my coffee. “In there,” I told him, pointing. “It’s only a pound.”

It had been raining earlier, I think. But the sun had just come out and my rain jacket was no longer necessary.

I have these sporadic photographic memories of living in England. They come and go. It’s always the little moments, too — the double-decker bus rides from Chorlton, the way the hallways smelled on the 5th floor of the Granada Centre, the pink of the bathroom stall doors, the loud bloop sound of P.’s mobile behind my wall when he got texts from his girlfriend in Peru. The blooping sound would continue throughout the night sometimes when P. fell asleep, beeping in increments of five minutes while I tossed and turned. His girlfriend must really miss him, I thought. Separation is tough.

Listened to some soul & hip hop last night. Good people, cool decor, tart cranberry juice. I’d like to play scrabble with E. again, but he’s gone for a bit. In fact, I’d like to play scrabble right now.

Why is life so awesome?

My ritual weekend campout at Ry’s ended with Me and You and Everyone We Know, an arty indie film I recommend, followed by a rowdy evening at the Burren. Tom & Larry & Ryan and The Other Ryan did crazy viola-viola-guitar-harmonica jams. Got invited to Hugh’s instrumental afterparty, as usual, since somehow they don’t understand I am not a musician (in the same way they are) and I actually have a dayjob to go to at 9am. But the bar was a wonderful time — people danced tonight, random strangers dancing together, I mean wow, it was rowdy and great. A part of me wishes I were exhausted, but I’m not at all. Hence the lateness and el internet. I really have to stop writing on this thing and start reading, and writing For Real.

A big wuttup to friends in the UK, by the way. Wuttup UK people! Go Manchester United! And Hawaii. Wuttup Kailua Kona! Think of me when you eat pineapples.

It’s noon and I’ve just had brunch with D., an old ghost from the past. He looks the same, though time has worn a bit at our spirits. Neither of us have the same mindset as we did in college, that get-up-and-leave-the-country inertia, the impetus and ability to move without a blink (not to say that I don’t continue to get up and move without a blink. It’s just more of a practical struggle now). I’d like to see all the photos D. took in 1998 so I can remember what we looked like then. We looked very young and a little scared.

napRy is sleeping. I can only hear the birds, and the sound made from punching in the pop-up holes on the top of my iced coffee lid like I did to my mother’s diet cokes in the 80s. Poomph! It sounds like that.

Am torn to frustration over Adobe Encoder video compression and problems with Premiere, so instead of video work I’m just sitting, wondering when it will rain. There’s some construction going on around the corner. It’s the Davis Square Lofts they’re building. What a cool place to live. I just can’t understand how Boston isn’t filled with only millionaires, because property everywhere costs millions. Maybe it is, though; maybe they’re millionaires masquerading as white collar software professionals, pushing their babies in those awesome three-wheeler bike-style strollers, the kind I will buy or build when I have a kid simply because they’re too cool not to own.

It’s a zen day. Time to do some reading or something. I hope the rains hold off for a few more hours. The cool air is nice, even though it’s sticky. I have to write about July a lot — too much, maybe — because it’s so nice and intense and it disappears so quickly.

Another series of fragmented phrases to recap my Saturday:

three cheese tortellini. with artichokes. madrugada. street fair. breakfast, ryry. video encoding, georgio. relationship talk, my coworker. cora on couch with watery eyes. harvard. park. guatemala. a happy calm. mosquitos. sitting in a sea kayak in a millionaire’s garden at midnight.

costumes at midnight; indian
food, music, someone & someone &
someone’s sister; photographs of
geysers & spiders, pigs & flowers, oh
i love the swelled ambiguity
of this strange summer;
i love this easy congruity of july.

And my favorite author friend in San Fran writes:

I’ve been having fantasies about you, me and my old friend Leon doing some kind of guerrilla journalism in exotic places, calling ourselves the Gemini Triumvurate and uncovering the Truth about ______. Whattaya think? These times need a literary schizophrenic threeway, right? We have a Jew, a Christian, and an atheist.
See you in Baghdad!
S.

I just realized the comments function doesn’t work on this blog. Sorry, technical/spam-related problems, I suppose. There’s always email, anyway.

toasterHave started visiting S.’s photography site, Eykoma, again. S. is a brilliant photographer who lives in Belgium. In college we hated eachother, or maybe we really liked eachother. I had intended to visit him in Brussels earlier this year when I lived in the UK. Now what? What do I do for my vacation now? I’m less and less hopeful about language school in Guatemala for a month, especially since I don’t have a full month off. It’s looking like Europe might be the most realistic alternative, in terms of knowing enough people in various countries to stay with. I guess I can’t complain about having a free pad in Paris, or London, or Brussels, or Berlin. Berlin! Perhaps Berlin after all. My residence is Germany is unquestionable; timing is the only issue. I am torn between buying a flat in Philly and borrowing yet more imaginary money to finance international grad school (again). Instead I’ll probably end up staying in Boston and sucking on mangos, the latest activity of summer. Why this insistent urge to travel? Why? Because there is nothing more unbearable than knowing there’s a huge world out there and you’re not exploring it. It drives me mad to think about what people are doing right now in Moskow, in Croatia, in Belize, in Hawaii, in Singapore, in Cape Town, in Tokyo, even back in Manchester, where M. lit his cigarettes in the toaster. Shiva is still stuck there, contemplating her future, and I wish I were there to buy her a hamburger.

I think I’m the only white Gen-X girl who enjoys going to church. Where are the other chics, the Moliehis and Concettas of Boston who like spirituality as much as I do? Tonight was great. Often I want to cry in church when something is super inspiring; I had that again this evening. Readings were all on Truth and power and fearlessness and protection and the nothingness of seemingly all-encompassing world problems and threats. Obviously, it was in response to events in London. I left penitent, aware of the things I’ve said or done that haven’t been right, eager to be a better person, cognizent of my own ability to conquer the world. I think this is how faith is supposed to make people feel. I hope everyone feels this way sometimes. For me it’s most frequent on Wednesdays.

It’s a gorgeous night in Boston. I rode to Ry’s alone and got ice cream alone and sat in his flat alone and spoke cellularly to people in faraway states. M. is returning next week for excursions involving me and Irish chicken and documentaries. Which is exciting. And there’s thunder tomorrow. Also incredibly exciting. I booked a flight home to Philly for next month. [Exciting.] Things are, on the whole, positive and happy. Which I couldn’t be more grateful for.